"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, Fools despise wisdom and instruction."
-Proverbs 1:7 (NASB)
Following up from my last post... here's what I know now.
On my job/work: by the end of this month, April, I will be an ortho nurse- still working the night shift. Due to changes beyond my control and most of my administrators control, our numbers have been low enough on our unit and on others that changes have to be made. What has been decided is that the gyn/uro patients I have been working with are being moved to another floor where numbers are low and the nurses are or will be trained to work with these patients. To provide for the growing population of orthopedic patients (mostly bone and joint injuries/surgeries, some trauma injuries) coming into the hospital, our unit will combine with the other half of our floor as an ortho unit. Over the next few weeks I will be involved with some training and education from more experienced nurses to be an Ortho and EENT (eye, ear, nose, and throat) nurse, but still mostly working with surgical patients (pre and post-op).
As difficult as it has been to accept this change-ortho nursing has never been something I am interested in-I realize that it is the best for the hospital to continue to meet the needs of our changing patient populations, succeed as a healthcare provider, and continue to provide jobs for all of our staff. I am just thankful to be keeping my job and be able to continue to learn and grow, while working with the same staff I do love to work with.
Meanwhile, my hopes and dreams of returning to India are still driving me forward and motivating me every day. Concerns over the specifics of what I would be doing there and whether or not my specific training and education would be best suited for the needs there, and whether or not it is the best use of my education and training at this stage in my life are the big barriers and questions here. I really feel and believe that I am called to return to India at some point, the question is when, where and in what capacity. My hope is that it will be sometime in the next year, for about a year commitment, working with some of the same people I met before-this is the opportunity ahead of me that stands as an open door, that I hope and pray is God's will for me now. No doors have been closed yet, but much still needs to be decided and details to come together before I can make a decision. This is a decision that could possibly change my life, and I honestly hope will. I need wisdom, guidance, discernment, and understanding only He can provide.
I know with all my heart I Want to go and serve Him in India in this specific way at this time, but I must be certain this is His best for me and the people there as well. Please pray with and for me that I would be listening carefully to His Word and trusting completely in His provision, following Him... not impulsively running ahead.
I do not consider myself an impulsive person, but when it comes to going back to India, I would jump on a plane to Delhi tomorrow if I knew God wanted me to-knowing He would provide all the way. No words can express the love and compassion in my heart and mind for India; a gift God planted in me several years ago that has only grown with time, knowledge, and experience. Please pray with me that I would follow after Him first, trusting Him to redirect my steps should I ever step out of rhythm.
Once I have made a decision to pursue this opportunity with everything I am and have, I will be sending out letters, posts and e-mails with details of what will be involved and all that needs to happen before I can go. In the meantime, I ask that you pray as the Holy Spirit leads you. I trust that He knows best and will work with anything you offer.
Thank you for following, reading and praying with me!
"Then I said, 'Alas, LORD God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth.' But the LORD said to me, 'Do not say, 'I am a youth,' Because everywhere I send you, you shall go, And all that I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to deliver you,' declares the LORD." -Jeremiah 1:6-8
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